from Reinventing Your Life by Young and Klosko
The two life traps that relate to your self-esteem–
Defectiveness—“I’m worthless”
You feel inwardly flawed and defective. You believe that you would be fundamentally unlovable to anyone who got close enough to really know you. Your defectiveness would be exposed. As a child, you did not feel respected for who you were in your family and/or were criticized for your “flaws”. You blamed yourself—you felt unworthy of love. As an adult you are afraid of love. You find it difficult to believe that people close to you value you, so you expect rejection.